So I've bought Matt his bday gift. I'm not sure if we're okay tho. Naalala ko lang din yung lie niya about how hindi pa raw dumadating yung gift ko raw nung pasko, na hindi na nga dumating, at naalala ko lang din bigla yung kinwento niyang binigyan nya raw ng gift yung isang naka-thing niya ng personalized stuff na may jokes. Ganun lang ba yun kasi baka mas matagal niyang kilala yun? Or ganito lang ba ako kasi first day ko? Ewan ko. Something also feels off. I'm also a little anxious na baka he's lost interest in me and this is yet another example of a relationship that proves what they say about how it's better to be with someone who loves you more than you love them. Or maybe I just need alcohol.

If hindi kami umabot ng birthday niya, benta ko na lang 'to or idk. Or maybe I'm being needy.

In other news, of course, more friends bailed on me again. Sucks but eh. I did a little happy dance din kasi nakakatamad.

I also called in sick sa work for two days. Bigat ng pakiramdam ko lately.

Also found out that my boss missed the email where I attached the signed paperwork for my salary increase, kaya umabot ng 2 months ang delay para ma-apply.

Bebu also seems different.

Or maybe I've changed. 

I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I feel horrible about myself.