What if magpa disconnect na lang ng internet.
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Monday, April 8, 2024
Wednesday, March 27, 2024
Matt is not my lifeline and I'm still my own person, but the days have been hard. I'm so glad for his existence. I don't necessarily believe in God, but if I did, I'd thank the Lord for Matt.
Monday, March 25, 2024
I feel like utter shit physically, mentally, and all last week.
I have to say, kahit na masama pakiramdam ko talaga, I always feel anxious going to a doctor. Could it have any connection to when I was laughed at the first time I OD-ed? Maybe. But I always feel like no one ever believes me.
Do I still have a job later? I hope so.
I wish my brain would stop.
Thursday, February 22, 2024
Sunday, February 18, 2024
Friday, February 16, 2024
Wednesday, January 24, 2024
My boyfriend and I are okay, but this song had me thinking if it reminds him of a past love, and he confirmed it did. I'm happy we can talk about it casually, like it's another chore he had to finish the other day. I think we're stronger and over this.
On a bad day, I would've been spiraling by now.
One good thing about today is I didn't fully realize how embedding Spotify tracks worked, in all my posting here for a few good years, until today.
Andrea just touched down in New York, and I saw her in a video call with all our other bosses in the onshore office.
I feel so lightheaded and sad. Mostly, sad. I'm sure it's because of my period.
Monday, January 15, 2024
Happy new year
I am happy. I cooked fishcake today. Hehe
From this
Sunday, January 14, 2024
Iniisip ko, tama bang panghinayangan yung ang ending eh nagcheat naman sa akin? Hindi sa mahal ko pa ex ko at all, pero napapaisip lang ako minsan kung karma ko ba 'to kasi di ko pinahalagahan nung sobrang mahal nya pa ako kaya ngayong may talagang mahal na ako, ako naman yung parang lukewarm lang na mahal.
Anyway, that was posted at 10:20 PM, which was about an hour ago already as of writing.
I had this insightful conversation with Matt:
I guess, I need to find my way back to feeling safe and trusting him and in his love. This is on me naman. Matt's been a sweetheart. I'll manage.
Nag-release si Matt Martian ng bagong album. I'm not vibing with it, not sure if not yet or maybe not ever.
Thursday, January 11, 2024
Today is a sad day. I feel like I'm losing Matt by the day. I'm tired. My absence doesn't seem like a big deal. Maybe I need to ready myself for the inevitable.
My current favorites:
Steps - Isaac Zale, Mick Jenkins