Happy The Great Outlook Outage Day 2 hahaha

Also happy Friday the 13th

Cute ng pins ko. 

So bakit puro Libra matches ko???? Ang daming Libra, Gemini, isang Scorpio, isang Virgo!!!

Also redundant yung isang answer ko sa prompt haha gusto kong lamunin ng lupa.

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May binalita sa akin sa work na hindi ko alam kung maganda ba o hindi. 

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Sa totoo lang, my innermost thoughts are:

"Was I not worth it?" 

"Would you have liked me more if I painted my nails?"

"Did you start liking me less when I gained weight?"

Many times I've wondered how you are, and I know they say that the only way out is through

But I cannot fall apart

I need to cope

I wish I could wax poetic about this spillage, but honesty's already taken so much from me.

My body feels so drained, I should've been a cloud.

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Isang selfie pa for good measure. Salamat at tanggap mo pa rin ako, truepa q0h.

TBT: Can't Wake Up - Ahmad Anonimis.

Actually, this full playlist talaga haha: March 2024

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Universe, tulungan mo akong malagpasan 'to please, nilalabanan ko siya.

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Pet peeve ko talaga yung "blah is blah" na thing hahaha

 I do like flowers.

Anyway, cute ko here 

 

I miss the companionship slightly, pero hindi ako magrerelapse. 

Medyo naka-move on na ako sa hyperfixation ko over that office guy. Nakakahiya ngang nagkacrush ako eh may jowa yun and feeling ko masipag siya mag OT kasi nag-iipon siya for the girl which is admirable. We love love.

Kind of feeling like shit. Naghahanap ako ng pagkakaabalahan.

Can I just say tho na kinilig ako kasi nabuhat ako ni Aj nung nakaraan 🤣 ibig sabihin di pa naman pala guguho mundo pag naglakad ako 🤣 Matt can never. Gusto kong nagpapabuhat haha tapos kahit naman nung hindi pa ako tumaba, ayaw ni Matt 🤣 Kung akala natin ay malulungkot ako at magrerelapse, malabo talaga kasi each sad feeling that passes by eh nasasapawan ng small moments na nagpapatunay na I'm better off without him. Grabe, I really felt deprived. Ni hindi siya hayok i-date ako. Ang date sa kanya matulog sa bahay nila.

Ang galing, it's been a month na since we broke up. Ang bilis!

Wondering if I should put myself out there. Sabi ng tarot deck ko, yes daw. Need daw change in scenery and I even pulled The Lovers card. However, bad idea daw to go this coming weekend but don't wait till next year kasi too much isolation would do more harm than good daw. I asked if sa katapusan ba, then I pulled The Emperor card. 

SO I CREATED A BUMBLE PROFILE. FEELING KO BUBURAHIN KO SIYA. ILL LEAVE IT ALONE TILL TOMORROW. ABANGANNn

Walang kanta sa ngayon.

Dear diary,

Signing back on sa secret & happy crushers club hahaha

Happy belated birthday to meeeee!!

Biniyayaan ako ni Aj ng picture ng crush ko na naka-side view. Sabi ko yung kabilang side naman kasi hehe hot/maangas siya don hehe. Grabe crush ko kasi nagwowork talaga siya tuwing Sabado, I'm so impressed? I wish to be that driven sa work?? I lost my drive eh

 

My real reaction

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Anyway, updates :

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 Natapos ko lahat ng report na kailangan ko for the week!!!! I'm so proud of myself 🫂

I wonder how Erika is.

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So eto na nga, I can cancel till the 22nd. Di pa ako super decided kasi anong gagawin ko???

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Throwback stuff habang naghahalungkat sa chat namin ni Jhoanna 

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New finds:

Spending Time With You - Janet Jackson

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Good night. Di ko alam ano gagawin ko sa ganap kina Alvin, I'm not a binyag friend.

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Card reading feedback

Also, sabi ni Le Sette non verbatim, bakit daw nung ako pumili ng cards nagresonate for her 🤣

May career ata ako dito

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Di ako makatulog, naka-tatlong kape ako kagabi. Americano with an addl express shot, tapos 2 cups ng Nescafe ako na dalawang sachet each mug 🥹

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Hehe

Happy birthday sa akin.

Inisip ko kung babatiin ba ako ni Matt, at hindi nga. Then again, di naman bago yun. Kahit naman nung kami pa, binabati niya ako kapag babatiin niya na ako. Which is okay. 

It's just another day.

Kahit tatay ko before di ako binabati. Kaya ayoko na lang na may mag-celebrate. It's okay. 

Buti na lang WFH ako today. Malulungkot lang ako, I think. Plus, meron na nga ako so ang sakit ng puson ko sa totoo lang.

Anyway, si Adi unang bumati sa akin. Haha

Debating kung mag ooffice ako kasi ang daming escalation at report

Tangina, naisip ko lang ngayon habang nag-OOT ako sa office, wala nang nangungulit sa akin habang nagtatrabaho ako. Nakakamiss din pala.  

Goldenboy - Thundercat

Countryside - Carter Ace

Liftoff - Discoholic

Surprise!

Kapagod 

Survival meal: liver spread & mayo. Nasasarapan ako tho genuinely. Marumi lutuan ko yes.

I'm also NOT PREGNANTTTTT SA WAKAS DINATNAN NA AKO YE-FUCKING-HEYYYYY

Honestly there's been so many opportunities para makausap ko crush ko but I don't have it in me. Na-realize ko lang.

Una, may jowa nga raw.

Ikalawa, even if wala, mahaba ang pila. 

Ikatlo, mukha nga kasing suplado. Di rin naman ako feeling close haha

Most importantly, I'm an insecure girlypop, plain and simple. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 Hays, nabalitaan ko yung crush ko nahuli na nag-Baguio ✨with a friend✨ habang may jowa sa Canada. Ayokong pag-isipan nang masama kasi what if hindi lang sila ang magkasama!!! Pero ehhhh si Jhoanna kasi nagsabiiiiiiiii 😔 so wala na tayong crush for today's video (jk). Sabi rin naman ng cards, mag focus ako sa sarili ko. Pero hehe di naman ako fully naniniwala. Taking it with a grain of salt. 

Paalam, PMFC 😩 charot. SINABING HAPPY CRUSH LANG EH, KEBS LANG 

5th anniversary pala sana namin ni Matt today haha

Alam mo bang as a child, fav number ko ang 4 / 444? HAHAHAHA. Share ko lang naman. 

Nakatikim na rin pala ako ng Evian for the first time haha

MAY GUSTO AKONG I-SHARE SA'YOOOO PERO SABI KASI, MOVE IN SILENCE DAWWWWWW.

May pakulo ako starting today hehe it went well!!

anyway, what the fuck happened to me no? I miss my old self.

 

 

Me now. Wag mo akong i-bash, I'm trying to like myself or at the very least, tolerate my face. It was fun nung Friday sa office. Ginawa naming playground yung office, inikot ko si Aki habang nasa upuan siya tas ginanun niya rin ako 🤣 sana daw kita sa CCTV, eh di baka na-HR kami. 
 

 

Also, GRABE ANG SARAP NG INDIAN FOOD WAAAA

 Current favs:

Mumble Rap - Lupe Fiasco

Samurai - Lupe Fiasco

Steps Beach - Childish Gambino

Iniisip ko, what if mag-solo trip ako sa Baguio this Thanksgiving weekend!!!?

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Hung out with Joel today. HE IS A DEAR FRIEND PERO GRABE THE YAPPING. VERY REMINISCENT OF MY EX. SO NAG-AYA AKONG MAG MASSAGE CHAIR TO TAKE A BREAK FROM HIS YAPPING 🥺

We saw a movie and wala siyang spatial awareness or concept of personal space naiirita ako hahaha he's still a dear friend but it made me uncomfortable hahaha pero syempre kung si crush to oks lang sana eh

Updates, I guess.

Wala pa rin akong reception na maayos sa office stairwell. I think my sim card is messed up kasi it's been less than 6 months since I switched phones! Wag na lang siguro mag-lunch jk. 

I'm so tired kahit na hindi naman ako super babad sa work (but I have to be).

I'm so proud of Abby, she's grown so much. Proud ako kasi I'd like to think I had a hand in training her 🥹 feeling stage mom talaga ako here hahaha

Exhibit A

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More updates

Ganda ng hair ko, ako na lang hindi.

Sorry for the jumpscare.

Funny imho

Used to think this song was cute bc our names r in it but I guess not anymore 🫠 im genuinely ok abt it tho. i feel off but it's abt things overall, not the breakup.

This song started to mean something after it played out of nowhere while we were laying in bed.
Kind of put me in my feelings a little bit. I'm good tho.

Funny customer escalation throwback, haha! 

Christmas came early again :) 

Grrrrrrr mag-exercise na daw ako. I don't feel comfortable exercising in public.

Funny ulit imo

Current survival meal: Italian loaf bread ng Cocopan, corned beef, mayonnaise, tas kanina naglagay ako sriracha 

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I still haven't cleaned my room. I worked from home today in hopes that I would be able to confront myself and handle the chores I've postponed for weeks now. While I'm not actively trying to die, I don't exactly feel like existing either

Fun song:

Rapp Snitch Knishes - MF Doom

Listerine - Dayglow

Oldie but goodie:

Go Back - SE SO NEON

Wishful Thinking - BENEE

I ordered something crazy and "off-brand" 🤣. Secret na lang siguro until 3 mos from now.