Hehe caught ya

Posting this a few moments after nag appear view count mo haha 

Anw, omg sudden realization - someone said contagious laughter ko SO NOW MAY SAKIT AKO FOR REAL PARA TOTOONG NAKAKAHAWA. LALA NG SENSE OF HUMOR NG COSMOS AH (yes ya girl's aware she hasn't been taking care of herself but I'm still partially in denial that I have to change something abt how I operate bc WDYFM i must disrupt my routine or lack thereof????!!!!!!!????)

But also, there's your update–Ive been feeling unwell since Sunday 😭 di ko alam bakit. I rly shd do a general cleaning sa bahay hehe 😭😭😭 ayaw

I could hire someone BUT ayoko ring magpapasok ng tao into my personal space PERO 😭 😭 I GUESS KUNG NAKITA NA NG LAUNDROMAT DILDO KO WHATS THE WORSE THAT CAN HAPPEN TO ME–GET FUCKED? Approved, please expedite (sexually ha hindi anything else give me peace pls). Haha horndog posting much. I'll get over it. 

I've been reading back my old entries and wow I rly miss having thoughts. Operation ibalik ang aking spark wahoo. Alam mo, I want to hug my past self. I'm happy di ako nagcicringe abt who Ive been (nagyaya to get with someone when we hit 35??) tanggap ko nang nagawa at nasabi ko na silang lahat haha pero duh di naman para broadcast ko siya so much. Low-key lang, like link it sa ig acct where nobody follows me pero shares the same display pic as ALL active socmed accts I have wink wink

I NEED WHIMSY IN MY SYSTEM. I NEED TO BRING BACK MY WHIMSY.

WHIMSY

GLITTER

LOVE

HAPPY

MAGSABOY NG GLITTER SA DAAN

SUMAYAW MAG ISA SA BAHAY WOO

Oldie but goodie, love my old self's music taste haha current one needs to develop her taste ulit.

Never succumbing to spelling ulit as ulet or pangit as panget. NO, NEVER.

wow ito pala laman ng utak ko when I let the thoughts flow freely. Will my brain ever stop. Wow ito pala secret dapat free flowing lang. Noted po. Okay hope this works para lumikot na utak ko. Live laugh love. Love and light. Love you laufey

Past Athena, thanks for looking out for future Athena. I love you, girl. 

gnite

Update, why does costar make it seem like may secret admirer ako be fucking for real te haha genuinely 

Weird

Also I failed sa sudoku game at work last nite so sad. Nawala na rin name ng crush ko sa top 9 haha did he also fail like me yie otp. I flew too close to the sun, aimed for the highest level of difficulty AND FAILED NUNG SOBRANG CLOSE KO NA LIKE LAST TILE(?) NA LANG IDIOT 

REPOST + MAY DAGDAG, AGA MO KASI MAGBASA!

Hello reader bakit ang bilis mo magbasa. Give me 2 hrs after posting naman kasi nag-e-edit pa ako hahaha or better yet talk to me IRL HAHAHAHAHHAHA chariz

Loooooord ansaya naman magka-crush

1. Same color suot namin nitong shift (madaming ibang naka-gray din tho LOL)

2. He was behind me in line nung bumili ako food and I heard his laugh

Although, tama sila na a crush is just a lack of information. Also nakakahiya kasi nakita nya pathetic kong Maya card 🤣 sabi ng mga stars, dapat daw mag-first move ako kaso pano 🫠

CRUSHHHHHH KAUSAPIN MO AKO PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MATATAMEME (matatameem) AKOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Addendum (?)

Sinend ng ex ko:

Wala tayong new song kasi Complicated ni Thama pa rin current fav ko. Here's Oct 2026 so far tho if you're interested. If lang naman. Di naman ito sapilitan. Lamoyun.

What if mag Pokemon Go na nga lang ako para makapaglakad? 🤔 Or Pikmin??

I forgot to say but another person called me their happy pill, like contagious daw laughter ko. Umm, I feel a bit self conscious kasi I'm not sure if they're being sarcastic or genuine kasi alam ko namang kapintasan ko ang kaingayan ko.

If it was sincere, then that's nice of them to say.

Maybe there's nothing wrong with sitting down with my feelings and admitting that I really felt deprived and starved sa relationship ko. Nothing against my ex, I just tolerated things that I didn't want. Binalikan ko last call namin, and I remember wishing he doesn't give up on love habang ang sabi niya sa akin eh mas maging parang assertive ako about the things I want... Things which I've told him about right off the bat.

I want to be treated like a girl, yun lang. I think I'm low-maintenance but I still want to feel like a girl. Nakita ko 'tong Thread na 'to and boy do I relate.

Nag-install ako ng TikTok para sana sa liveselling ng officemate ko kaso nakita ko following list ng ex ko, puro mga babaeng ma-boobs. Napakasagwa dahil nakita ko yan haha pero in a way, I feel validated na I made the right decision. Tangina, buti nga nakipaghiwalay ako. Wala na talagang balikan 'to.

I've been doing surprisingly well these days. I really must've checked out of the relationship before we even broke up.

Pero ikatlo kasi, nakita ko cringe kong videos na ginawa FOR FREAKING WORK. Awat na please.

In other news, I guess I life'd today

Obviously, I didn't play but it was still fun to watch. Ang admirable ni Erika for being so open to life and to experiences, and for not being afraid to look stupid for the sake of trying. I wish I could get over my complex haha 

I feel a bit sad kasi wala akong bday plans. I've lost touch with most of my friends outside work and I only have a few friends from work na genuine and pwede kong dalhin in real life.

Sucks.

I have to be okay with myself.

Letting you in on a little secret—ang high school ng vibe ng utak ko today kasi I've been thinking, Ah, I have to be careful not to stare too long so no one finds out about this silly crush.

Kailan kaya matatapos ang fixation na ito? I need to stop feeding the delusion.

Song on repeat today