Proof of life yehey

"May mga gabing hindi ka maililigtas ng malaking sagot. Minsan, ang humihila sa'yo pabalik ay isang maliit na abala."

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In other news, my partner has become more proactive about sex but I wish this happened earlier, before I changed. Now, this feels awkward because I don't feel the same way anymore 🥲 I also don't want to shut it down because I want to see whether this is just a phase or not, but I have to say, I'm a little scared kasi it's different from what I've been used to.

I want to know whether this is gonna be our normal or not.

The recent shooting in the Senate building makes me wonder about the future of the Philippines. After BBM's term, would the Doo-thirty administration come out on top and take over the next presidential elections? I'm prolly just in denial right now. 

I bet pakiramdam ng mga sympathizers nila na martyrs si Batwo and Doo-thirty. I think of my relatives in Davao.

I'm suppressing any deep emotions and thoughts about this because I'll feel hopeless otherwise.

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In other news, I have the biggest crush on Ahn Hyo-Seop 🥳💖

Mahalin mo ako please 😫 Sana may jowa sya kasi gusto kong kiligin. Ang interesting nya and pogi as a person (or his persona at least)

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I'm listening to Kanye's JESUS IS KING at the moment and I feel lukewarm towards the album pero kaninang umaga, I was reminded of Jordan Ward so I listened to some songs from his old album and grabe, that takes me back... I can't say it was a fully good time pero hindsight is 20/20. Who would've thought that was already the better part of my life and things could still get worse? Right now, it feels like I'm even more so on survival mode than before. 

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Klaire, a dear old friend, put out a Substack entry and ang amusing lang na ang relevant for me nga, with the recent visit to Calaca and all.

Anyway, di ko nakuha baptismal certificate ko at di rin tanda ng tatay ko saan ako bininyagan but I got these instead: 

St. Therese, Kinder 1

Don Bosco, Prep school 

Tuition dati, grabe!

Eto na lang muna siguro. Bye!

Last weekend means so much to me as far as my relationship with Matt goes.

It was a very sad trip tho. 

No other photos than these ones below.

 

It was a sad trip. Details to follow once I've fully processed my feelings. 

In other news, here: May 2026 - I'll add more to this playlist when I find more songs I like :)