Updates, I guess.

Wala pa rin akong reception na maayos sa office stairwell. I think my sim card is messed up kasi it's been less than 6 months since I switched phones! Wag na lang siguro mag-lunch jk. 

I'm so tired kahit na hindi naman ako super babad sa work (but I have to be).

I'm so proud of Abby, she's grown so much. Proud ako kasi I'd like to think I had a hand in training her 🥹 feeling stage mom talaga ako here hahaha

Exhibit A

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More updates

Ganda ng hair ko, ako na lang hindi.

Sorry for the jumpscare.

Funny imho

Used to think this song was cute bc our names r in it but I guess not anymore 🫠 im genuinely ok abt it tho. i feel off but it's abt things overall, not the breakup.

This song started to mean something after it played out of nowhere while we were laying in bed.
Kind of put me in my feelings a little bit. I'm good tho.

Funny customer escalation throwback, haha! 

Christmas came early again :) 

Grrrrrrr mag-exercise na daw ako. I don't feel comfortable exercising in public.

Funny ulit imo

Current survival meal: Italian loaf bread ng Cocopan, corned beef, mayonnaise, tas kanina naglagay ako sriracha 

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I still haven't cleaned my room. I worked from home today in hopes that I would be able to confront myself and handle the chores I've postponed for weeks now. While I'm not actively trying to die, I don't exactly feel like existing either

Fun song:

Rapp Snitch Knishes - MF Doom

Listerine - Dayglow

Oldie but goodie:

Go Back - SE SO NEON

Wishful Thinking - BENEE

I ordered something crazy and "off-brand" 🤣. Secret na lang siguro until 3 mos from now.

I feel sad. Delayed din period ko. Sana datnan na ako. That may also be why I feel this way. I feel dead. Parang nabuburnout ako ulit.  Birthday ko na pala next week.

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Natatawa ako sa papa ko.

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Current favs

Sextape - Deftones

Marry Me - St. Vincent

Bound - Wet & Blood Orange

This run:

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I really feel sad.

Nakuha ko rin parcel ko from my landlord. Will start learning tarot card reading. Baka maging tambakan ko na to ng personal readings ko.

4 CARD SPREAD

Your Personal Energy

Energy of the Situation/what is blocking?

Solution card/How to overcome 

Outcome card

Temperance Reversed

7 of Swords 

Ace of Swords Reversed 

Ace of Wands Reversed 

5 CARD SPREAD

Energy of the situation 

Your current energy

Your partner's energy

Your blockage 

Your partner's blockage

Ace of cups

6 of wands reversed 

Temperance

The hierophant reversed 

King of pentacles 

CELTIC CROSS SPREAD

Present situation/your energy

Problem/energy blocking you

Past energy leading to this situation 

Your future/energy you are moving towards

Consciousness/higher self

Conscious thoughts

Unconscious thoughts

Your influence on the situation

External influence on the situation 

Hopes and fears

Overall outcome

 

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Me again, nag-canvass ng bag sa SM.

Masarap nga sa yawyaw

Dear Diary, today reinforces talaga to KEEP CALM NA ABOUT SA CRUSH NA ITO. I must retreat!!

So tumunganga ako don sa usual area ko during lunch then nakita kong dun siya tumambay sa harap ng elevator instead na sa tabi ko. Like, huhu. Iniiwasan ako ng crush ko ☹️ but it's okay. 

Me: it's okay

Also me:

Or baka sa hagdan na lang ako ulit tumiwangwang, nag-improve naman reception don. 

At dahil diyan, magwowork from home na ako every Tuesday and Thursday para mawala na ako sa landas nya. Not to be a sad girl or anything, I just don't wanna be a nuisance like that. Baka nakakahalata na rin siya. Yikes. Papansin tayo but we are not desperate 😬

Natatawa ako kasi madami naman palang fangirls ang crush ko. I feel less weird about it. Ang tawag sa club namin ay P**** M***** Happy Crushers Club dahil happy crush namin siya. Oo, ako na nag decide sa name hahaha 

Hindi nila alam na crush ko rin crush nila. Tanging sina Aj at Delmo lang ang pinagsabihan ko. Tsaka ikaw, tho no name-drop pa hahaha. BAKIT KO I-I-IMMORTALIZE ITONG PETTY CRUSH NA ITO ON THE INTERNET WHEN IT'S AT THE EXPENSE OF MY DIGNITY HAHAHAHA hanggang asterisk na lang tayo, dapat redacted lang and IYKYK ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ If you don't, eh di good. My dignity remains intact ahahha

Naaaning ako slight – nagbabasa ka ba dito, crush q? 👀 Kung ganun ay kausapin mo na ako HAHAHAHA jk

Nah, I know coincidence lang ito. Una, dun ako nakapwesto sa locker area nila so natural magku-krus talaga landas namin. We had the chance to talk nung weekend hang but didn't so no, we will not be delusional 🫠 plus nagsmile siya (slightly?) kay Erika haha if anything baka si Erika pa bet nun wahahaha kebs

In other news, so eto na nga. May crush ako diba tapos may nakakadiri akong nalaman about someone else na ka-account ko like YUCKKKK kasi he hits up girls and may schedule siya PER GIRL like wtf. Karapatang pantao mong lumandi pero keep it in your pants naman sana sa office (except kay crush - hello, i am available hehe). Apparently, he's already messaged about more than 5 girls na YUCK TALAGA 

I bet if I spoke up, they'll be like, inggit ako kasi they don't ✨desire✨ me. Seriously, I already know how their minds work. Been there ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Going back, may crush ako pero grabe nakaka-discourage kasi I am reminded of how men are. 

Anyway, current fav

Cloudy Sky - The Cardigans 💖

Midnight Sky - Icee Red & G Bliz

Ako naman I can't keep my mouth shut, alam na nina Aj at ni Delmo kung sino crush ko wahaha natatawa ako sa stupid kong question kay Jhoanna:

Am also thankful di siya yung tipong mapilit wahhaha 

Bigla kong naalala Tumblr account ko kasi naalala ko SoundCloud ng crush ko (cute nya lol) AND NAGCI-CRINGE AKO SA SARILI KO LOL KADIRIIII