I feel like shit 

All the jokes sound the same and nothing's funny anymore. 

"People often fall out of love when they are depressed because they no longer feel connected to themselves and their partner," says licensed therapist Abbey Sangmeister, MSEd, LPC, ACS. "Depression creates a fog around us that does not allow us to see or feel clearly, which can cause us to feel that no one loves us, we feel or don’t have the energy to love and give, or feel overall numb and disconnected."

Could this be why I feel unfulfilled in this relationship? Maybe I'm just depressed.

I think this is good enough reassurance for now.

gusto ko iumpog ulo ko sa mesa ko 

yan ang aking daily intrusive thought

 mga instrusive thoughts ko kanina:

"what if sabihin ko walang tubig sa bahay so di ako makaligo"

"sana wala kong masakyan tas makikiusap akong mag wfh this shift"

"SL?"

"lock out ko kaya pc ko...."