Sad song

My boyfriend and I are okay, but this song had me thinking if it reminds him of a past love, and he confirmed it did. I'm happy we can talk about it casually, like it's another chore he had to finish the other day. I think we're stronger and over this. 

On a bad day, I would've been spiraling by now. 

One good thing about today is I didn't fully realize how embedding Spotify tracks worked, in all my posting here for a few good years, until today. 

Andrea just touched down in New York, and I saw her in a video call with all our other bosses in the onshore office. 

I feel so lightheaded and sad. Mostly, sad. I'm sure it's because of my period. 

 Current fav

Tangina, kailan ba ako magkakaroon. Peke ba yung nagkaroon ako? Jusko.

Happy new year

I am happy. I cooked fishcake today. Hehe

From this

To this

I also like how it tastes. Funny din kasi may tumawag sa akin in public to ask saan ko nabili ecobag ko. Outfit check below #PalengkeFashionIcon #Korique

I got a new phone last Saturday too. Namaalam na phone ko for real nung kasal ni Andrea: 

Speaking of kasal ni Andrea:

BEST PRANK EVER NI ANDREA NA ILAGAY NA ONE HR EARLIER THAN THE ACTUAL EVENT YUNG SA INVITATION HAHAHAHAHA. Sabi nya pa, "Kilala ko kayo."

TRULY SHE DOES, HAHAHAHA! The day was so much fun 💖

Eto new phone ko na medyo nagsisisi ako. Ang pangit kasi ng camera.

Ang laki ng spacing ng apps and everything! Or baka naninibago lang ako. I miss my old phone.

First pic with the bebi 

First pic of the Bebu

Delayed period ko. Sana datnan na ako. I love fishcake so much, good night!

Iniisip ko, tama bang panghinayangan yung ang ending eh nagcheat naman sa akin? Hindi sa mahal ko pa ex ko at all, pero napapaisip lang ako minsan kung karma ko ba 'to kasi di ko pinahalagahan nung sobrang mahal nya pa ako kaya ngayong may talagang mahal na ako, ako naman yung parang lukewarm lang na mahal. 

Anyway, that was posted at 10:20 PM, which was about an hour ago already as of writing.

I had this insightful conversation with Matt:

And he did humor me, but I'll keep it to myself na lang :)

I guess, I need to find my way back to feeling safe and trusting him and in his love. This is on me naman. Matt's been a sweetheart. I'll manage.

Nag-release si Matt Martian ng bagong album. I'm not vibing with it, not sure if not yet or maybe not ever.

My January favs.

Today is a sad day. I feel like I'm losing Matt by the day. I'm tired. My absence doesn't seem like a big deal. Maybe I need to ready myself for the inevitable. 

My current favorites:

Sugar Island - Jesse Gold

Flow State - Casper Sage

Steps - Isaac Zale, Mick Jenkins