Saturday, August 22, 2026

I don't feel like I exist. I feel like I am too big for the life I have and I don't like who I am or the life I live.

Thursday, August 13, 2026

 The entire way to work feels like a walk or shame, but I power through taking every next step. Today is another one of those when I don't feel that I exist or shouldn't, at least.

I feel like whoever I was supposed to be is bigger than this life I'm contained in. I just don't like who I am. I hate myself so much. I really hate myself. I fucking hate myself.