I feel like it's hard, if not impossible, to go back to who I was before everything went downhill, and it's prolly difficult because I don't exactly know where things went south. On the other hand, I wholeheartedly believe that it's doable to attain a sense of self that's tolerable for yourself. It's not the same as regaining my old self, but I can't hate the parts of me that have matured.

Anyway, not to self-diagnose, but I think I feel depressed. I also feel detached from things or people I'm not supposed to.

I don't know how to feel okay. 

Maybe I'll be able to process and work through my feelings in the next couple of days. I hope so.