Anyway, I forgot to say something I've been meaning to share about Matt since last week pa. Napansin ko lang na yung mga sinasabi kong pakinggan niya ay apparently na-like niya na pala sa Spotify. Di lang niya ina-announce. Like these:
Plus we cleared up what I was worried about a few days bac. Thank you for this relationship.
I just saw Sleeping with other people and wondered what if placeholder lang pala ako for someone? And if an opportunity comes up for a shot to be with the greater love, what then? Nagbabahay-bahayan lang ba ako? What if yun pala yung lesson for Matt, to choose what will make him happy over protecting the feelings of other people who matter? So in the grand scheme of things, it would've been the right choice... Granted, he could also be a placeholder for someone too—as to who, idk. Kasi right now, siya naman talaga. Sigurado akong wala akong lingering feelings sa ibang tao. I still have my personal issues though, true, but I know enough not to waste my time and emotions kung di ko naman pala kayang panindigan yung relationship. Siguro that's where the fear is coming from, kasi committed nga ako tapos baka bumalik lang ako sa dati na mahihirapan na naman akong mag-let down ng walls ko kasi it wouldn't go as well as I hoped. Gets ko namang pessimistic 'to kasi kung tutuusin, we are okay. Everything is going great. Seryoso. I can't believe I'm in this kind of relationship where it feels secure.
Naniniwala naman ako sa sinasabi niya. Wala lang. Makes you think. We're okay though. Wala namang certain talaga in life. Magsasabi naman daw siya if may issue.
Di ko sure if may sense pa to. Also deja vu. And Bebu cute
