Dear Diary, today reinforces talaga to KEEP CALM NA ABOUT SA CRUSH NA ITO. I must retreat!!

So tumunganga ako don sa usual area ko during lunch then nakita kong dun siya tumambay sa harap ng elevator instead na sa tabi ko. Like, huhu. Iniiwasan ako ng crush ko ☹️ but it's okay. 

Me: it's okay

Also me:

Or baka sa hagdan na lang ako ulit tumiwangwang, nag-improve naman reception don. 

At dahil diyan, magwowork from home na ako every Tuesday and Thursday para mawala na ako sa landas nya. Not to be a sad girl or anything, I just don't wanna be a nuisance like that. Baka nakakahalata na rin siya. Yikes. Papansin tayo but we are not desperate 😬

Natatawa ako kasi madami naman palang fangirls ang crush ko. I feel less weird about it. Ang tawag sa club namin ay P**** M***** Happy Crushers Club dahil happy crush namin siya. Oo, ako na nag decide sa name hahaha 

Hindi nila alam na crush ko rin crush nila. Tanging sina Aj at Delmo lang ang pinagsabihan ko. Tsaka ikaw, tho no name-drop pa hahaha. BAKIT KO I-I-IMMORTALIZE ITONG PETTY CRUSH NA ITO ON THE INTERNET WHEN IT'S AT THE EXPENSE OF MY DIGNITY HAHAHAHA hanggang asterisk na lang tayo, dapat redacted lang and IYKYK ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ If you don't, eh di good. My dignity remains intact ahahha

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In other news, tinawag na naman akong happy pill ng isa kong ka-office and, internally, I'm like, huhu, you meant it the whole time??? 🥹🥺 Also she seems maangas so parang huhu for that to come from you??? You mean, you don't hate me????? 😭

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Nag-message ex ko sa akin for help kasi I think may issue siya with moving his money around tapos hindi pala verified Grab wallet niya. Not sure what happened but hope he's doing okay. Also kinda weird he'd be like this, parang ang out of character kasi he's not the kind to make this mistake or did I stereotype him as a Type A person too much?

I guess, on the other hand, I'm a little relieved he feels comfortable enough to reach out to me for things like this but another part of me wonders if eto yung tinatawag nilang "relationship bids"?

Not that we're in a relationship like that kasi nga we broke up already. Pero alam mo, I feel chill about it? Medyo detached na nga eh, which is sobrang layo dun sa Athena na nagmakaawa same day we broke up LOL. I'm proud of myself but also slightly worried kasi could I just be suppressing my feelings? (Haha suppression system yarn??? IYKYK wink wink) I really don't think so, pero you never know eh. Mahirap magsalita nang patapos.

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Tinatamad akong magwork pero hindi ako pwedeng tamarin. Sobrang lamig sa office na it makes me VERY drowsy 😭 Na para bang nag-antihistamine ako.

End of month namin ngayon and things should be hectic but they're not and that's scary kasi cleanup season dapat namin now till EOY. This lazy feeling is a trap!!!!!!!!!! 

Medyo bored na ako sa ginagawa ko tbh. Besides, nakakapag-delegate na ako eh. Parang consultancy job na nga lang siya eh, I can work off of my phone na at this point. Charot hindi pa rin kasi my life is an endless spreadsheet ahahahaha 😔

ALSO BIG, BIG WINNNNN. ETO NA LANG BALANCE KO SA SSS LOAN KOOOO WEEEEEEEEEEE ✨

GUTEN MORGEN 🎶

GUTEN MORGEN 🎶

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May friendship update ako pero it's a sad one and Im not sure I can post it here so pahapyaw na lang for remembrance kasi ulyanin ako (tis about Mikay :c) natameme ako. Di ko alam anong sasabihin.

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Ang takeaway natin ay all the words have escaped me no matter the aspect of my life. Pinupuno ko lang tong virtual diary ko ng mga walang kwentang bagay kasi what am I but a lifetime of mundanity ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Need ko na talagang bumili ng bagong bag 😔