I've been meaning to update you on everything that's happened over the last few days.
Here's love:
Got a significant raise on my salary. Initially felt bad about it, but my work friend turns out to be just as qualified so 💖
Kyle and my boss apparently are both in the clear. Alright then, you two. Have fun, lovebirds.
Caught up with Airene for a BIT. Hopefully she and Matt can meet too one of these days.
Ana the friend from work FINALLY STOOD UP FOR HERSELF and will start working from home next week :)
Swung by my boyfriend's place. I wanted to just have a bit of chicken skin kaso puro big parts kasi and then this adorable idiot gave me chicken skin from his portion 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 again, if that's not love, then idk what is.
Traffic light en route to Matt :)
I messed with my internet connection last Monday. Jowa was so worried and concerned on how to go about it. Man I feel so cared for. Also offered one of his phone #s as secondary contact since i don't get reception where I live. I have more thoughts on this and why kinilig ako but I think that's for myself na lang.
Naalala ko first date namin habang papunta ako sa kanila today and kinilig ako HAHAHAHA looking forward to more dates
Natatakot ako minsang baka maging Russell part 2 'to, pero
1. No to self-fulfilling prophecies (thanks for the reminder Gianna)
2. Ibang-iba si Matt dun. He never talked shit about his former flames. There were women who did him dirty, and he shared those. Of course, you'd be frustrated. Pero never siyang nagmalinis and nakakabuntis ang sense of accountability niya (I'll just call him out if approaching doormatness na)
And so despite my brain being my worst enemy, despite having gotten used to overthinking, and this unhealthy defense mechanism to think the worst of everything as if it softens the blow when shit hits the fan, it's easier to believe. Kasi what my mind is trying to convince me to believe and what Matt is actually doing are two different things.
I know I still have a lot of figuring out to do, but I'm sure I love this person. I want to grow with him and become a better person overall and be deserving of him.
Here's a slightly recent pic of Bebu
