Came across this link while I was looking up interpretations on dreams of past and current lovers in a threesome setup because SO dreamt of it. Most of the results were meh; compiled them all in this one MS Word file and sent it to SO
songs:
i dont know how i feel these days when i think about it. or maybe i shouldnt be thinking too hard about it to start with.
i feel like crap theres nothing to look forward to ahha still wont mind being deleted from existence
Ang unpleasant ng nararamdaman ko ngayon. I'm still on the fence about that team building this weekend. Everyone says maybe human interaction would improve my disposition but what good use is forcing myself to mingle when I don't like the people I'm/I'll be with? I still may flake. Bahala na yung 600.
Umiiyak ako ngayon pero di pa rin naiibsan yung nararamdaman ko, whatever this is. I can't even explain it, pero my best bet is eto yung onset nung naramdaman ko dating parang humihiwalay yung utak/kaluluwa ko sa katawan ko. Ang sakit sa ulo. I'm doing my best to function, but to no avail.
Ayoko na talaga. Gusto ko na talagang maglaho. Parang gusto ko na lang gumawa ng kung anu-anong impulsive na mga bagay and waste away, waste myself away, waste away my life.
I'm tired of everything seryoso. Alam kong paulit-ulit, but I mean it everytime.
Siguro maybe in the future if I'd be given the choice between avoiding a gory death but continue living as a consequence OR ending life but thru violent means, I may eventually find comfort in the latter.
Life isn't all that bad, I swear I know, but I still can't bear it for some reason. I don't know why this is, or where this dissatisfaction is still coming from. I have no expectations in life anymore, kaya nga dead weight na lang ako eh, but even then, this still happens.
I just want this to end please. Di ko na kaya. Ang sakit na sobra sa puso. It's like my heart is being clawed out of my chest. It physically hurts so much.