i hope im doing things right this time around. work was great yesterday. someone's giving me the cold shoulder at work, and i'd be ok I'm even relieved for the quiet, but the idea that someone's mad at me makes me feel uneasy but ill hopefully get over it.

in other news, im also a little scared. i don't want to elaborate. i can't. or maybe i can. im scared of when it gets messy, if it does. or if it ends up im not rly good enough. i suppose im scared of being eventually abandoned in the trenches. 

im feeling insecure ig.

im not gonna share any further. gnite.