I'm at a standstill—

There's a small desire to share whatever this is with the very tiny world I exist in, but at the same time, I'm a little anxious about jinxes.

So we're going here instead. 

It's also my mom's birthday. Hope today treats us both well. 

This is the calmest my life has ever been the whole time I've lived it, but every so often I still get afraid that I might not be living my life the right way, and I'm not where I'm supposed to be, and that I'll end up becoming the very thing I've wished to avoid.