I can't believe I'm still talking about you; I'm the last of your old things.

Misquoted for my benefit. Lol. It sucks being alone.

I think my mental state right now is a mess. My room is always its best depiction and right now, it's messy. Lol. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't know what to do. There isn't anywhere to go. There isn't anything to do. Do I still have friends? Maybe. I don't think I can reach out to any of them. 

Why am I this alone.

I don't feel okay. I feel like shit. What is the end game? I wish I had something to live for.

When people say they want to die, I wonder if they need to be consoled or if they really want to?

I imagined myself walking in the middle of a super highway, waiting for a truck to hit me, with a note in my pocket asking whoever finds my body to just dump it somewhere and to not hold the driver liable. 

Maybe I should read. 

It'll be my birthday in a week or two, and it'll be a reminder of how no one really remembers me and how alone I am. Lol. This is why I constantly deactivated because I can pretend people just don't have any way to reach me instead of accepting that no one remembers. No one talks to me. I talk to them. I go to them. No one really wants me. I feel so alone. I reach out to them. Damn. Maybe I should just read. I wish I could be like when I was kid and just hide behind books, but I don't feel like reading anymore.

I'm sorry. Para akong nangkukwenta. I can't expand on my thoughts any further. It'll just show how bad I really am and be taken against me lol

I'll just watch Corpse Bride