i wanna feel your shades of warmth.
I feel disgusted at myself for reinstalling tinder. I swipe and swipe on random tinder profiles but I know I don't want to date anyone of them and there's someone else I'm thinking of lmaoooo. But I'm so goddamn lonely.
Loooooool not. I'm not laughing at all. I just ran out of things to say. I wish I was in a better mental state honestly, maybe I'll be likeable that way.
Anyway I deleted the account not more than 10 mins after
I think i feel emotionally constipated. I wanna cry but I can't. I should remind myself that I should enjoy being with just myself. It's what I need
On another note, here's the lyrics to Blood Orange's "Hope" which i sorta relate to right now:
Is this the way that you want it to end?
Is this the way that you leave me?
I already told you I don't wanna be friends
What's it gonna take for you to believe me?
Is this the way that you want it to end?
Is this the way that you leave me?
Is this the way that you want to pretend?
Is this the way that you see me?
Is this the way that you, way that you are? (Yeah, bring
hope when you come around)
Is this the way that you, way that you are? (Yeah, I
still smile when you come around)
Yeah, I still smile when I come around
Is this the way that you, way that you are? (Yeah, bring
hope when you come around)
Is this the way that you leave me? (Yo, yo, yeah, bring
hope…)
