should i go back to therapy?
i woke up later than intended and on the wrong side of the bed. i wasnt able to watch adaptation like i originally intended. plus, right now i feel like throwing up and i feel like shit and i wanna cry while working. it also looks like my throat is fucked up.
i know i should stop talking about myself. like do something productive. write or read. haha. but good lord.
just wanna share something. lately, ive been thinking a lot about going back to my old ways-- the unhealthy stalking, but then i saw being john malkovich last thursday, and this scene: pain, my dood. this shit hurted!!!!
to relate this on a personal level, i also refer to this scene and picture (in my mind) to keep me from going back. i should look away. there is clearly no point in doing that anyway. i just harm and get myself unnecessarily angry, which is bad considering how i cannot (obviously) seem to regulate my strong emotions.
