fake asleep

Maybe this is what they call emotionally constipated, and I can't let myself off the hook. It feels like I should cry, I want to cry. There are many things that I want to release, but they just won't come out. And I can't let myself fall asleep till I feel something. Anything.

Ayoko talagang mag drama, tsaka di naman ako nalulungkot ngayon (namamanhid pa nga eh), pero nitong nakaraang linggo, bigla na lang akong umiiyak. Lalo na kagabi. Nakailang iyak yata ako. 

Parang di pwedeng sakto lang. Either iiyak ako ng wala talagang dahilan o ganitong namamanhid ako.

I don't feel right. Ang daling humingi ng tawad.  Ang hirap magpatawad. Bakit ganun? 

Sorry na lang talaga sa inyong lahat. Di ko na sasayangin oras ng sinuman by sending an unwanted message. I've said my piece then, and now, there isn't anything else to say but I'm sorry. 

Inaantok na ako sobra, pero di ako makatulog.