Tuesday, October 21, 2025













 

 


This means a lot.

I really feel sad. Like, very, very, very sad. Big sad. Nothing feels right anymore. Parang ayoko na. It's not like I want to feel this way, but I do. I feel so miserable.

Monday, October 20, 2025

 Nasasad ako kasi we don't do anything outside, di niya man lang ako inaaya pumunta ng kung anong event ba.

Monday, October 6, 2025

I feel like he's waiting for me to break up with him lang. He doesn't really love me, he just a strong sense of responsibility and obligation.

I feel a bit resentful towards Matt. Idk if nalalason lang utak ko kasi I know I'm not in a good place right now. We haven't been intimate for a long time. We also don't do the things I want or visit the places I want to. I'm also not happy about work and I don't have friends anymore.

I'm okay being alone naman, it's not like I'd want to talk to people din right now. I'll most likely just push them away. Ang hirap lang ngayong ganito nararamdaman ko. I don't remember gaano katagal nang nakatambak hugasin ko sa lababo and yung labada ko. More than a month na siguro. It's that bad.

I want to get out of this but I feel glued to my bed. Obviously I also don't like myself right now.

I kind of want to push Matt away din.

Saturday, October 4, 2025

 Isang buwan ko nang pinapabayaan sarili ko. Haven't cooked, haven't cleaned, etc. lol Im not proud of the current state of my room 

Could I be depressed lol