I came across several hospital discharge paperwork from when I last attempted to kill myself in January 29, 2019 and I am so overwhelmed with feelings of immense loneliness for my past self who went through it, the unbelievable wonder and relief that I am still here, and this endless gratitude to all of the people who got me to where I am. The past days have not been easy, but the bad and good do come in waves and so I am hopeful that I will be okay soon.

It's nice to look back and see how far I've come

I miss Bebu

Sabi ng jowa kong joker at ipokrito 🤣

jowa kong cute at ipokrito haha

Kanina nagtry ako aralin paano i-embed YouTube playlist the same way like Spotify but it's a hopeless case so you're stuck with this:

Thank you rin sa'yo for still coming by every once in a while.

Test

I panicked kasi nawalan ako internet nung bumagsak modem ko 2x 😩

Biggest achievement this week 😩

Cut my hair yesterday? Eto na result lol trying to layer it lol

 

Sabi ng jowa ko:

Hindi sa bland akong tao pero intentional ako sa interests ko, at hindi ako performative sa interests ko at mukhang normal naman pala ako mag-isip (as far as interests go).

Mga luto ko pala

Song on repeat last night

 I miss my dog. I'm sad.

Current faves

 "This dream was planted in me because it was meant for me"

Oh tangina gago ako na nga nag adjust ng goal wala pa rin

Nawiweirduhan ako kasi parang may joke na lahat natatawa tapos ako lang yung hindi nakakaalam. Parang ayoko na lang.

 Hehe

Why do I never feel enough?

It's also my father's birthday today. Hope you're doing okay. I know I've been coming here less and less. I'm not sure if that's really a bad thing. 

 

Pwede ba to ipaframe haha