Can't hang out and go out and do fun things with anyone. I feel sad. So I waste it all away on food. And whatever. I want to see other people, not the people I see on the daily. I love them too, but ?????

I can't seem to find people to do new and fun things with. What a lonely life. Boyfriend even suggests plans to others that he otherwise wouldn't do with me. I was thinking it felt like I'm just a stuffed toy he hugs when he's in bed or chilling at home, not an entire person to exist with. Okay naman na sana, we had already agreed na there's nothing wrong with staying in. I guess it just sucks na that's all we ever do, and he used to say all the things we could do and try, and we never do it anyway. I get naman though na nakakapagod yung commute palang papunta dito, so di ko alam ano fix. Ako rin naman galing work lol.

Maybe I shouldn't have gotten used to things outside of solitude. 

Baka sinusumpong lang din ako. Sana lumipas na 'to. 

I'm also sick. I feel worse. I've had cough syrup but I still don't feel sleepy. I just wish to doze off until it's another day again. I wish for the year to end already. It's tempting to down the whole bottle, honestly. I just don't want to be this wide awake right now.

I'm close to reaching 666 posts.

I'm thinking of deleting all my social media accounts. I don't feel like it would matter anyway.