This is reassuring. Kaya pala ang apologetic niya kagabi, kaso di na kasi ako maka-sneak in ng ibang messaging sites na at work eh :(
I'm making a conscious effort to fight my brain and trust Matt. Matt is not Russell. Siguro part of me is scared na habang eto ako, nagmamahal, baka I'm being cheated on na pala. Pero I trust Matt. Matt has better things to do than that. At mahalaga oras nun para sa sarili niya.
Natakot lang ako. Kung tutuusin, we still see each other often. We just don't talk as often na, pero syempre dasurv yun. Need ni Matt ng sleep otherwise baka ma-burnout lalo yun sa work. Ako rin naman nabubusy kaya di rin nakakareply agad.
Na-appreciate ko yung honesty tho na he felt the same way. Siguro ang akin lang, kung may higher deity nga talaga and God's not dead (eyyy lol), eh salamat.
Masaya naman ako sa takbo ng relationship namin ni Matt eh. Wala naman pagkukulang si Matt. Sana ako rin. Di pa rin ako maka-decide ano ireregalo sa kanya. May nakikita ako. Sana sumahod na ako. Siguro sa katapusan ng April ako bibili at the latest or pwede magdecide na ako non para split costs end ng April at mid-May. Korek.
Natapos ko na album ng Silk Sonic. Paborito ko Smokin out the window, Skate, Love's Train, Put on a smile.
Tapos eto current faves q (no particular order)
Siguro the worry is coming from the fear of losing this when it's the most I've loved, and to top it off, I'm loved back! And a few other irrational thoughts na I'll get over hopefully tomorrow. Matt is rational. Sana if may nagawa ako magsabi siya para maayos agad imbes na mag-fester.
Also, ayoko nang mag-abot kami ni Ainge sa office. Sana makahanap ako ng magandang work with good pay before then.
Sana may magandang balik naman yung lungkot kong hindi ko alam anong dahilan, and everything I don't have that almost everyone else has. Sana bigyan pa ako ng mundo ng pasensya for it at pagpapasensya, because we both need it.
I don't want to think about mortality atm, my train of thought seems to be headed that way.
I saw Donnie Darko today. Sana kami na ni Matt gang libingan.
Sana safe si Airene.
Sana sumahod na ako.
May viral pala sa Twt atm, ano raw insult na di mo malilimutan, eto akin:
