I've always disliked Rico Blanco's "Antukin" after I came across the lyrics on your run-of-the-mill song book from high school. I found it atrocious that English and Filipino were mixed together, and I likened the song to Wattpad stories that were The Shit™ back in the day—She's Dating the Gangster, Diary ng Panget, etc, all of which should be dubbed as classics from the platform at this point.
Pero ngayon, na-appreciate ko na siya. Tangina rin nung pinaiyak ng manghuhula at nakakatawa dahil bitch, if it ain't me. Cute pala yung kanta. Eto pala pag inlab. Yieee. Hahahaha.
I got teary eyed dito:
At nabawasan lumbay ko dito kasi ang daming baon ng lintek na crush kong 'to haha
Eto aso ni AJ, sarap yakapin. I instantly felt better when I hugged him 🥺
This dog is HUGE but so well-behaved and so gentle. Humihingang maternity pillow.
And here's Bebu palablab
Nagpareading ako kay Reyn kanina:
I felt a little bad na I still asked this kasi I was reassuring Matt at the same time that he's doing just fine, even better than fine which I meant naman talaga. Idek what the rationale was behind my asking this question. Petty shit, most definitely.
And thus, ✨poetry✨ was born. Or Jupee Manese.
And this was a nice touch to end the conversation
We'll always try. Okay na yun. I feel like my veins are filled with glitter hahaha I really, really, really, really adore this person.
IN OTHER NEWS... DAHIL HINDI LANG NAMAN SI MATT ANG MAHALAGA SA BUHAY KO!!
Natawa ako after ng coaching session ko with my team leader kasi nagsabi yung mga kateam ko na si Athena ba ang na-coaching o nag-coaching? Pero I really utilized my time to clarify everything with Paolo, or idk, vent at least.
And it means a lot to me when the people I share my real, serious thoughts with take their careful time to go over it and really read what I share. I sent a screenshot of what I shared with you yesterday to Airene, Aj, and Matt. Si Matt, could be na nabasa tapos di gusto pag-usapan at the time, parang medyo na-bad mood siya after eh tapos sumama pakiramdam. Make no mistake, when I ask him na I need to have that kind of conversation with someone, he accommodates me so much, tsaka before I started writing the letter, I've been asking for reassurance from him the entire time. Literally. So I get it. That was heavy stuff too. Oo, dinedefend ko, I don't want anyone to get the wrong impression about him. He's a good boyfriend.
But going back, Airene and Aj read thru it and also really supported and encouraged me. Kaya I saw King earlier kasi I dropped by Aj's kanina, tapos habang shine-share ko yung letter, laging may disclaimer na alam kong mahaba so hindi mo need basahin ng buo. Tapos may parts na tumatawa siya, tapos it had me like, "I can do that?"
And Airene is sweet. I wish we could catch up soon. She's one of the people I know I can trust with my bare soul. I love her so much too. Along with Gianna, and many others :)
Tapos natawa ako kasi nung Tuesday nag-nipple cover ako kaso natatanggal, ang ending inalis ko na kahit nasa office ako. Tapos sinita ako ni Mikee kasi yung romper na suot ko, if tumuwad ako, makikita singit at kuyukot ko. It do be comfy tho.
Kinabukasan, nag-bra naman ako, kaso natatanggal yung button sa top na suot ko tapos nung pauwi na kami, nasa harap ko si Mikee, tapos nakatanggal yung button by accident, eh we caught my bra (it's lace btw, okay lang makita pls). I went, "De, fineflex ko lang bra ko pambawi kasi wala ako suot kahapon" tapos humagalpak siya?
Like I'm surprised I can make people laugh like that? I'm not as hateful, I suppose?
When I learned that Trixie tried to kill herself and couldn't stop myself from crying at my desk, Mikee also sent this:
Meant a lot.
I've always described myself as a sandwich lost in space (thus, the tattoos), an interesting view, but I have nowhere to go, no sense of direction, and I'm floating, suspended. It's not calm and peaceful. I'm scared of outer space. Why would one even be out there?!
But with all this love around, maybe this time I can just fall without worrying if I'm headed to a crash and burn. Instead, I'll be back home on Earth, and I will free fall into a soft, careful embrace.