SO said he's stopping by this Saturday, but I feel so shitty I'm not sure if I have the energy to deal with another human being over the weekend. SO is different, of course. I love him without a doubt. Idk if his presence would do me any good while I'm feeling like this or have I gotten so used to being on my own that the idea of having someone on your side feels so foreign? Is it the same thing as bawling when he said he's also gonna call off work when I went on leave a day after my bday? Hmm. 

In other news, yes Ryan I'm proud of you. Im happy that good things are happening to my friends.