I tried walking on my way home because they said mobility should help me get out of this funk, but it worsened. I felt lightheaded and I think I was close to idk dissociating idk I'm not diagnosed. Idk if I looked normal walking anymore it felt weird I gave up and got on a jeepney across Southmall. It's not even that I was tired.

I don't think Matt still loves me. Or maybe I just love him more. Nobody's counting. Or maybe he loves me enough and my brain just functions like crap. 

Real-time update, I got off the wrong stop. So so out of it. So I'm walking back again. Lol.

Would've asked Aj if I can drop by, but I realized she said she wont be home over the weekend. Or maybe I just imagined that. 

How do you know if a relationship is headed to a fall? Is ours one of those. 

I don't feel real.