Some people forget I'm not supposed to carry their hearts for them, that when I lift it sometimes, it's only to help them help themselves a little, but not fully take their load for them? Idk. I feel a little iffy honestly about how when I ask, I always get the short end of the stick. I guess, iniipon ko na lang hanggang sa mapuno na lang ako. Like? Yung bisitahin man lang ako hindi magawa when she lives across me?
Though, benefit of the doubt nga na baka may pinagdadaanan, pero ako rin naman?
Tapos biglang may ganito and for what? Anywayyyyy. Di ko naman siya pinaplastik, hinahayaan ko ngang mag-unfold ang mga bagay-bagay over time and then decide by then.
I don't feel like we're on the same page nor are our values aligned? Ayun. Buti na lang, mahal ko sarili ko so hindi ko hahayaang ma-exhaust ako.
Anyway, namedropping time, yung suspetsa ko nung nakaraan ay si Miss Rina girl. LOL pero pwede namang hindi. Anyway. Kebs na lang talaga kung sino ka. Salamat sa pagsubaybay sa talambuhay ko teh hahaha :)
If I can be honest, I don't feel the need to tell her how I feel these days anymore. I don't feel like I can still trust her anymore. I sorta looked up breadcrumbing in friendships and it adds up. See:
Man. So many plans that we didn't push thru with, tapos naisip ko lang, ako pa yung parang nasa mali kasi ang atat ko sobra na nagseset ako ng dates or para akong nagseset ng deadline or nagmamadali kahit hindi naman dapat? That's how it is when you want to see people, isn't it?