Today I did not take care of myself properly. I got drunk without eating proper food for 2 days and so Im nursing a terrible hangover. The only light I see at the end of the tunnel is that I've finally managed to throw up real food and not weird tasting acidic stuff so there's that. I hope I feel better soon

I wanted to regret and say maybe I should've stayed in my room but things have already happened and it's not gonna make me feel better anyway. But I really could've just ordered food or smth.

I also wasted a lot of money bc I needed water I wasted money for fare I wasted money on fucking Grab. last night had more shit than the fun stuff. I also had a fucking horrible meltdown and ended the drinking with some scratches lol I don't remember a lot about what happened. I really didn't need that to happen honestly it wasn't a matter of letting it out because I could've let it out on my own mannn ok that's enough I guess I might've initiated the drinking but bottom line is no more alcohol for now. Im hungover