hello everything

u know that day I only had one hour of sleep? well I turned out to be productive hahaha met the target, did my laundry, FUCKING TOOK A BATH AHA AHA.

anw i was browsing thru my old photos and idk why. this may seem narcisistic of me but why do i hate myself so much in the moment then end up looking at myself through old pictures and finding that im not as ugly as i thought i was at the time???

i mean look AT HER!!! LOOK AT THAT GLOWING SKIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOOK!! AT!! THAT!! GLOWING!! SKIN!! i know i smile like an idiot (esp on the 3rd pic) but thats just my brand, dont expect sexy hot pretty selfies from me,, but these were back in 2017? 2018? damn why did i waste this cutie on my exes,,,

versus present me btw (like i took this literally five mins ago)

Look at how long my hair has grown aaaaa,, and this AFTER CHOPPING OFF THE DAMAGED ENDS,,,,,also i havent taken a bath today but i did yesterday lols anw i havent combed my hair either so forgive me. anwwww, waaa my hair is growing,, i am a little tempted to dye my hair but idk,,, im thinking of growing my hair to my waist, like it was circa 2018-ish? see if i'll like it, if i dont, then ill damage it again aha aha aha aha it would be nice to have healthy hair for a change

i need to get the energy to watch the tree of life,, also i dont get im thinking of ending things so much, it needs a second viewing (or possibly, more) im so glad im feeling ok right now. i was starting to feel like crying again...