Someone asked how I've been feeling recently, and I thought I was okay, that I just need to get back to watching my kdramas for my fluff fix, but I realized after watching a few eps of My Liberation Notes that I'm only okay because I hide within my routine. If I didn't have anything to do, I'd lose it for sure. Because right now, despite having something to do, I still don't feel okay. I don't feel like crying, but I feel dead. I constantly get up at 7:15 PM against my will, and work is at 8pm. I've started eating a lot again. I feel bloated lately.
Clingy alarm clock. But a cutie.
I've looked up yoni massage, someone is offering that kind of service for free, but I'm not sure if I should take part.
One part of me thinks it might be just what I need to let go in terms of sex, but another part of me thinks I should just keep to myself for now and not get physical with anybody solely for the sake of fulfilling empty desires.
I haven't made up my mind yet.
I really feel drained and sad lately.