Honestly, right now, I feel so languid and I wish time would at least pause or maybe, possibly stop--and my life along with it. Obviously, there are some things you just don't get in life, this being one of those. I don't know if this is just a side effect of this drink I recently tried or maybe it's the sleep deprivation. It sucks that I'm now seated with this officemate I sometimes consider my office crush, though most of the time, he's really nothing but a stranger. I don't really care much about him. At least not as much as I care about you. I miss you. Typing about you makes me tear up. Lol. 

Good news, I reunited with Ate Wheng earlier today. We went to MOA, and that's why I only got 2 hrs of sleep, but hey, the things you do for friendship, right?

There's been this trend going around lately about how not sharing this sticker on Instagram or Facebook implies one supports (?) rape? And honestly, I know I'm truly, truly against rape but the idea of participating in such irks me. Lol. I talked about it with a friend and she said that it seems performative, and while I agree that it appears that way, I cannot help but remember what someone told me about how intent is innate so we're really none the wiser when it comes what these people's intentions are. 

I honestly just want the day to be over. 

We're also going to have a Christmas party next week at work, and I'm FUCKING stressed, as in I cannot express how much it fucking stresses me out just to think of what to put on my wishlist. I don't really like asking stuff from people I'm not really close with. Asking for favors for things I really need is no problem, but this is just excess. I don't really have anything I want someone else to buy for me. Or at least, it's not something you can buy on Shopee or Lazada lol. 

I feel so floaty and weird. I just want to curl up on my bed and cry. 

I think it's Ryan's birthday. Happy birthday.