im so scared of the days that have gone by because i think just one small trigger and ill be back at it and im really really trying to stay okay and im thankful for my dog and i miss her and i just wanna be with her and i dont wanna work :( i think i need to file for a vacation leave but im not sure what to do and im broke my savings are almost all gone im so sad i wish i was in a better place funny how getting my phone stolen was all it took huhu maybe i shouldve waited till november to buy a new phone idk no this is worth it and even my frens say i dont need to pressure myself because i got me two new cabinets and theyre also investments and i got me a bed so like?? but idk idk idk :(( im so poor :(( 

how did i get to feeling this sad again :c