Ok I'm really sad

While I'm perfectly aware that my self worth is based on me, times like these make me feel like I'm worth nothing but a hookup. I just wanna be loved haha fuck Ill be better I'm tired. I still wouldn't mind getting run over by a ten wheeler I'm too lazy to cook I feel like shit. Is it the alcohol? Probably

I have my friends my friends are awesome but I'm still so sad I wanna be gone I can't do anything. I'm dumb and stupid and not good enough for anything so fucking sad and while I'm aware whatever mistakes I've made are in the past and that I should forgive myself it's so hard I hate hate hate hate

It's so weird why I feel like this. I called out my ex bc he can't be alone, and now I'm feeling like this I hate it,, come be with me,,

I wish I could hurt or kill myself