I keep thinking kung ito na ba talaga ang kinahinatnan ng buhay ko, na am I supposed to surrender to the monotony of life? And maybe me drinking to feel is my way of breaking out of it. It's easier to be sad because it is what I've known for most of my life.

Ang hirap maging masaya.

Do I just give in na lang at maging robot?

Maybe it is true what they say, that it is cowardice to revel in the sadness and pain, and that it is much braver to choose to be happy.

Anyway there's this person who's always going to be special to me, and I wish for you the best things in life. :) you may not love me as much as I love you, but that's ok.