Am I okay? I'm not sure. Nakakapanibago lang na it doesn't feel as heavy right now like it used to. It doesn't feel right, honestly. 

To that one consistent view on all my blogs, thank you. I hope 2021 gets better for you, if 2020 wasn't. Thanks for sticking around. I hope we become friends. Or not. I don't know. 

If you've ever read my blogs from top to bottom, then yeah. I owe you big. It's nice to know that whatever shit I have to say, there's always going to be that constant stranger reading, somewhere in this world. Thank you for wasting your time on this waste of space on the internet. It may not have meant anything for you, but it means a lot to me. I'm not sure if I know you, but I say this with my whole heart: I love you. :)

I have more thoughts, but I'll continue them later. I need to get back to work. Lol. 

[11:27 PM, 12/31/2020]

I thought I was okay. I even put on makeup. Why am I crying. Again. 

[11:55 PM, 12/31/2020]

actually di pala ako ok pero pagod na ako sabihing hindi ako ok?

Man I want to fuck. Guess I'm not as averse to sex like I thought I was. 

FUCK. GUSTO KO NG KARAT