my mind has been muddled by the thought of my mom's birthday for weeks, before it was even her birthday. (twas on the 9th) till now. idk what to feel or say tho. but it's been bothering me. i havent told anyone. i dont feel like telling anyone. it even took me a while to write about it here. i finally quit the group I'm in, in that game ive been on since June, only to play another one (Genshin Impact YAYYY). I wish I could go back, but I've caused irreparable damage already. 

Maybe that's how wearing your heart on your sleeve can be wrong. 

I wish I wasn't straightforward at times like this. 

I also wish I didn't trim my bangs, it looks like shit. 

I feel meh. Not exactly like shit, but eh. 

I miss and don't miss talking to people. I want and don't want to talk to people.