I guess it's a little sad I can't get that moral support from someone I hoped I would. 

I got lost and forgot there's a life I'm a passive, or an unwilling participant of.

I appreciate the good stuff in my life, but boy, do I feel awful. I can pick myself up this weekend, but I feel like it'll come back and I'll regress in the near future. 

Man, I Love Radiohead

I wish I still had dreams. 

I can't believe I once wanted to write. I wish I still did. And I know I've said this countless times, but I'm too big of a person to not have any desires. 

Adaptation's Meryl Streep encapsulates how I feel. 

I always mean well, and it's not always going to translate, but I always only mean well. I have no personal ambition to nurture and turn me selfish, and I believe I only take what I'm due, although I won't complain if I receive additional. 

I just want to feel alive. 

For today, I'm relieved to at least be partly out of this funk. 

I am watching The Bear as of this writing, and if this isn't the perfect song to end this entry, then I don't know what is. 

My bad, it's been a while since the last

I love Radiohead, man. 

I've skipped work for two days now. I don't know why I'm back in this place again. I'm not in a good headspace. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm in limbo. 

I'm supposed to be a happy person. 

I remain awake, while you effortlessly drift into and out of slumber. I do my best to stay quiet, and then I listen. There is so much to learn from the silence. There is only so much I can learn from the silence.

I wish for us to breathe at the same time. 

 Matt and I played Pinoy Henyo Letterboxd edition. 

I had fun. I hope he did too. 

Nakita ko ulit yung how we started vs how we're doing ba yun, and thank you to the good universe for leading Matt to my direction. Man. 

It's always so fun when we hang out. I like his company. I like his smell. I always yearn to feel his skin.

He randomly kissed me at a parking lot yesterday, and it makes me feel giddy just thinking about it.

Lately, nalululong kami ni Matt sa Restaurant City. Natatawa akong isipin.

 I feel like shit. And like I'm good-for-nothing. Ii feel like I only do nothing but cause shitty stuff to happen for everyone around me. I make things worse for everyone