Spent the last four days out of town. I still feel empty. Things were good for the moment until they weren't.

Ganun lang talaga yun. Okay na lang. Ganun na lang naman yata talaga yun.

I don't know how to feel about things. I can't elaborate yet. Saka na lang siguro at ayoko nang isipin.

Tbh, I think this guy's going to break up with me anytime soon. Sana he just gets it done and over with na so we can move on.  Unfortunately, the person's also indecisive (worse than me i think) so eh. Buti na lang go with the flow lang ako so kebs lang. I'm not breaking up tho kasi I'm still willing to work on it, it's too early to call it off I think and ang wala namang solid na dahilan to do so on my end. 

Ang dami kong nababasa about going for the things you want, letting go of things you think you want, pero wala na kasi akong pangarap sa buhay. Di ko alam anong gusto kong paghirapan, maliban sa pag-build ng sarili ko. I think posible namang magawa 'to habang striving for a dream, pero wala na kasi ako nun. Kaya di ko rin alam para san pa ako nabubuhay wahahaha