Twitter hates me 🥹 it won't let me backread our conversations. Di ko rin matantya kasi minsan nakakalayo ako sa chat pero iba-iba kung saang part ako biglang ibabalik sa most recent message. Gusto ko lang namang mag-review para siguraduhing walang info na nakalagpas sa akin.
If I were to share these to somebody else, I'm dead certain they'd say I'm in deep, and I'm not, totoo! Like, okay. Tinatantya ko na yung travel time niya, di ko rin alam bakit eh magkausap naman kami the whole time during. Siguro para maging mas familiar ako in the same way I know he should be awake at 3am. I already know what you think and I don't agree.
I'm considering na mag-reactivate ng Facebook or Messenger tho, ayan. Whether that's a good or bad sign, you tell me. TANGINA KASI ANG HIRAP MAGBACKREAD NAKAKAINIS.
Wala lang. Skl. I'm weirded out too don't worry. Or maybe I'm trying to figure these out kasi I'm trying to integrate the person in my routine ok that's weird haha baka in denial ako pero u know what, no.
Ok sure na ako I'm not ~in deep~ (or at least not right now, maybe just not yet) kasi okay pa ako, accepting pa ako. Wala pang sakit factor unless siguro duru-duruin niya pagkatao ko yun na lang. Otherwise, it's all okay so far.
Alam mo, if this doesn't work out for me, then either it's not really for me or I'm still in a slump I need to get out of. The reasoning for the former is that I have nothing else to share but the mundanity in my life, and if that's not enough, then nothing will ever be. If this pace doesn't work, and this is actually how I like it, then maybe I want the impossible, and that's okay. I'll just let pass all those moments of weakness that are to come.
My current favorite, I'm not heartbroken though, okay?
And this might be what falling in love sounds like. Ang whimsical lang.
Right now, I'm not overthinking as bad as yesterday, so that's progress.
We're meeting tomorrow. Bahala na.
Ang calming ng Night Shift ni Lucy Dacus. Phoebe Bridges caught my attention first, but I think si Lucy Dacus ang makakasungkit ng puso ko.
I know I rant a lot, but I think I'm actually happy, after all? I'm not saying this just because of this recent development in one aspect of my life. Siguro, if anything, it reminded me that life is okay, so that's nice. :)
Work just got me in a slump, but I'm slowly bouncing back. I can only hope for everyone's patience with me.